Everyone has a story and I am choosing to share mine to perhaps help others and relate to the world. Because in the end, we have nothing to offer each other but our stories.
My story doesn't start from the beginning and I doubt there will ever be an "end". I think I'll just start right here in my life, where I'm at right now... I'm the wife to the most amazing man, Logan, and the mom to the sweetest baby boy, Corbin. We live in a little town north of Birmingham, AL where we are surrounded by Logan's family.
This has been a year full of excitement, new things, challenges, happiness, sadness and everything in between! Moving to Alabama was the hardest and best decision I have ever made. It was the hardest because I left my family and everything familiar to me in Arizona. It was the best because it has made my marriage stronger and following the Lord's will is ALWAYS the best! I'll share the entire story of how my husband and I met and how we ended up in Alabama, but for right now we are here and its beginning to feel like home.
I say beginning because I think a part of me will always miss Arizona and especially seeing my family often, but I visited last week and it was a different feeling than when I would visit in the past. We have lived here since last July and we went to AZ for my brothers wedding over Thanksgiving weekend and again for a week after Christmas. Both times leaving was the hardest thing! I cried and I felt so sad inside. Most of my first year living in AL was full of tears and sadness. I spent many days alone while Logan worked or went to school. My job was up the driveway in Aunt Carol Anne's basement helping my mother-in-law with her soap business (Southern Natural Soap...it's the best!). So the only times I saw people outside of the family was my weekly trip to the grocery store or at church on Sundays (which is a tiny branch with no one else our age or in the same stage of life). But although I have felt more loneliness and perhaps some mild depression in the past year, I know I am stronger because of it. I have learned a couple things, it is good to be comfortable with yourself and to find time to be with YOU, but too much alone time is not healthy either. I also understand the importance of truly depending on your spouse and creating a family with him. He is my favorite person to be with! I honestly could spend all day, every day with him and not get bored of it.
That immense heartache and those tears of sadness are no longer there, I've known it since we moved here over a year ago that this would be where we lived for many years to come, but now I can feel it becoming my home, the place I am excited to get back to and the place I want to raise our family.
